Reflect! Day 28

I've been reading May Cause Miracles for the past 28 days!

Even before I started reading I was getting up at least 10min before I needed to and meditating with Gabby's guided meditation! I loved it. I started reading the book and would meditate and read the morning passage and start my day! But then I stopped. I am now hitting snooze more often and getting up way past the last possible minute to actual have a easy flow in the morning. I don't rush but I don't do what I need to before heading out of the house! I'm exhausted. I need to change this story!

I know my thoughts are a lot better! I can feel it! I feel calmer. Sometimes my Ego takes over but I am more able to recognize this and change it immediately! I also feel like I'm complaining less. There are still moments of weakness where I feel I just need to bitch. Hell it's only been 28 days in my 40 day program! I'm doing pretty damn good!

This past week was about relationships and forgiveness! Always forgiveness! I used the hate the word! Especially when it was aimed around someone who has hurt me in the past or even within myself! I thought I would find this week more difficult. I thought I would find these daily tasks more difficult. My Ego is trying to get me to question this process! I am doing good. I am love!

I feel like I have pulled away from people through out this! At one point I was so desperate to be surrounded by people. Now I feel like I just need to do this within myself, alone! The rest will fall into place! I know I am already surrounded by those I love & love me back. I hope they know how much I care and I thank them for giving me space! Even if words have not been spoken to this need! I also thank them for not laughing at me while I go down this path! Even though I know they may not fully understand. It's ok! They don't need to!

My homework with Leisa was to be grateful for paying bills and receiving services! I've done this a few times but not as much as I should be! Today I will be printing the auto payment bills and will meditate around being grateful for having the ability to pay them with ease and being grateful for the services they bring or have brought in the past!

This is a slow process! It's hard for me to enjoy the ride with the unknown coming at their own pace! Knowing I will always have miracles around me and manifesting what I want once I am full acceptance of what I have is a gift! But my Ego makes me impatient! It makes me judge. Question. Give up!

That was the old me! I am finding beautiful people online doing the same thing or something similar around self love and I am in love! I am choosing love instead! The next 12 days will be amazing! An if I have to start over to deepen my process then I will do so with love!

Love and Faith! Words that used to scare me!

Happy 28 Day Reflecting!

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My Body is Light

Today is Day 16 in my "May Cause Miracles" 40 day transformation to believe in myself and make miracles happen!

This week is about body image. This is hard for me because of how I see myself. After having two kids you would think I would see me as this amazing being for being able to do something so miraculous! Which it is! But I don't and am working on it! I am now going from hating my image to loving instead.

However today is the last day of the Calgary Stampede! And I am going down to eat! Bacon wrapped corn dogs, bacon dipped in chocolate, mini donuts, deep fried pickles, cheese steak covering in onions and peppers, potato taco thingy... Mmmmmmmm

I am forgiving myself. I will not put myself down for choosing to enjoy a day of cheating! Tomorrow I will continue to eat clean and healthy (with the ability to treat myself). [Note: Must look up hemp or rice protein powder with no sweeteners]

Today I turn my thoughts over to my inner guide and let it guide me! While I have fun eating crap!

Deep breath in. "My body is light". Deep breath out.

I can't wait! Yeeeeeeehhhaaaaawww Come Hell or High Water Stampede was a success. I think. I don't watch the highlights or the news. Fingers crossed! Calgary needed this!

Hearing My Inner Guide

I have always struggled with my voice. My wants. My needs. Settling for things because they are easier. Always feeling alone. Unhappy. Confused.

So.... I decided to try something new. Meditate.

And when I ask for guidance Passion Parties ALWAYS comes to the front line! Always. I asked for a miracle and 5 minutes later I have a party booking for the weekend ahead. 20 minutes later I have an outside order. Few hours later I have another party booked and a few other outside orders.

So why am I so afraid to be successful?

May Cause Miracles had you digging into these fears. At first I wasn't even thinking about Passion Parties. Of course my fears tied into it but I didn't think about it because I was considering that Passion might not be my future. Until last week. My Passion fears are picking up the phone, talking to my team, following up with past customers or booking parties. But I am still successful. I still work! I have maintained good sales all year with two exceptions. MCM talks about the things you admire the most about someone is what you want. I'm constantly asking myself why it's not me. When I read others success I'm always comparing myself to them. I manifest things fast. So why haven't I with this? I deserve success!

I need to find out what I'm afraid of?

I know this is my key. It keeps coming up when I ask my questions. My Inner Guide keeps pointing me into this direction. I thought for sure I wanted something else. But I'm good at this...

This will be my next thing I need to work on with Leisa. Along side with my own work and budgeting.

I hear. I'm scared. I'm alone. I'm breathing

The unspoken rule of parking spots

When entering new neighborhoods I'm always aware of potential "parking spots" out side of homes. Meaning if a spot outside the home I am going to is unavailable I am aware I may be taking another home owners regular parking spot. If it's a place I frequent I tend to take note. I used to get really annoyed if my "spot" would be taken when I was coming home from a long ass day at work. You know because walking those few extra steps were a big pain in my young mind. Now I'm blessed with a driveway but we have two cars! I've learned to not let little things like that bother me now. However it's not me on the street anymore. The few times another car was in my driveway I noticed how little it bugged me! Bonus points for my mental growth. 

Over the past week however there has been a new car on the block! I am pretty sure it's a boyfriend to one of the teenagers next door. Last night he parked in my husbands spot. All night. On garbage day night prep. Lol

I didn't think it was a big deal but I can totally see why my husband was super annoyed. (Like I would have been) On garbage day those big ass truck come around and reach out with those big ass arms and do their job. If there is not enough space between the bin, cars & other bin(s) they do not take it! What's wrong with them not taking it.... Our garbage is full of disposable diapers!!! Major gross if missed a week! Ugh... And who knows if this guy understands the space requirements. Plus having to put the damn bin in the middle of my driveway is a huge pain to move around at 6:20am! I'm not all butterflies and rainbows in the morning!

So today I had all good intentions of parking in his spot to save it so this guy wouldn't part there again. I forgot. And he parked there. Again... 

Fantastic! Just another thing to set him off.

So who comes to the rescue? My 6 year old. While playing outside he sees the guy and tells him he's parked in his dads spot! The guy just looked at him and went to his car and drove away! Ha nice dude.

I wonder if he will park there again? Dumb Ass