Even before I started reading I was getting up at least 10min before I needed to and meditating with Gabby's guided meditation! I loved it. I started reading the book and would meditate and read the morning passage and start my day! But then I stopped. I am now hitting snooze more often and getting up way past the last possible minute to actual have a easy flow in the morning. I don't rush but I don't do what I need to before heading out of the house! I'm exhausted. I need to change this story!
I know my thoughts are a lot better! I can feel it! I feel calmer. Sometimes my Ego takes over but I am more able to recognize this and change it immediately! I also feel like I'm complaining less. There are still moments of weakness where I feel I just need to bitch. Hell it's only been 28 days in my 40 day program! I'm doing pretty damn good!
This past week was about relationships and forgiveness! Always forgiveness! I used the hate the word! Especially when it was aimed around someone who has hurt me in the past or even within myself! I thought I would find this week more difficult. I thought I would find these daily tasks more difficult. My Ego is trying to get me to question this process! I am doing good. I am love!
I feel like I have pulled away from people through out this! At one point I was so desperate to be surrounded by people. Now I feel like I just need to do this within myself, alone! The rest will fall into place! I know I am already surrounded by those I love & love me back. I hope they know how much I care and I thank them for giving me space! Even if words have not been spoken to this need! I also thank them for not laughing at me while I go down this path! Even though I know they may not fully understand. It's ok! They don't need to!
My homework with Leisa was to be grateful for paying bills and receiving services! I've done this a few times but not as much as I should be! Today I will be printing the auto payment bills and will meditate around being grateful for having the ability to pay them with ease and being grateful for the services they bring or have brought in the past!
This is a slow process! It's hard for me to enjoy the ride with the unknown coming at their own pace! Knowing I will always have miracles around me and manifesting what I want once I am full acceptance of what I have is a gift! But my Ego makes me impatient! It makes me judge. Question. Give up!
That was the old me! I am finding beautiful people online doing the same thing or something similar around self love and I am in love! I am choosing love instead! The next 12 days will be amazing! An if I have to start over to deepen my process then I will do so with love!
Love and Faith! Words that used to scare me!
Happy 28 Day Reflecting!
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