Refreshing!

I have NO idea how many times I've gone to the gym but I have lost 4 lbs! I'm 146. Can I subtract my milk filled boobs and say I've lost 5? Does that count LOL I liked my dad's scale better! It said I was 140. What about my shoes? Can I take another pound off for them? So really 6 lbs? No? hahaha

I like how I think! Either way I am feeling a lot better! I try not to focus on the pounds per say. More about how my clothes are fitting. And right now a few of my jeans are starting to get loose! Very nice!

I got up today around 7:20. Fed my baby, got my little man up for school and made breakfast and his lunch! He was super excited until he was standing in his line and I said goodbye to him there. He wanted me to come in the class with him. Part of me wants to hold his hand through this but the other side of me wants to toughen him up and get him used to me not being able to drop him off when I'm back at work. Lets just say when he started to cry I had to bite my tongue to keep from crying too! I miss him. More so now then when I worked. What's it going to be like leaving both kids next April?

After that I went to the gym! Had a great sweaty work out! I really wanted a smoothy so I went to Jugo Juice and got their raspberry one with some spinach added. It was good! I think I'll have to pick up some ingredients to make my own when we get back from BC.

So now I'm all showered and ready to get this place organized for our trip. Baby is sleeping! It's so quiet.

I'm very refreshed and happy! Losing weight is so easy! Feeling good is so easy! :)

Dear Gym... I Love You

Yesterday I read someone asking what makes you motivated enough to the gym. Yesterday morning I got up at 4am to drive friends to the airport and I was feeling great. I got home around 5:30 for my baby's one night feeding. I finally layed down around 6:30 and was thinking how I should go to the gym. I didn't get up at go because I only got about 4 hours of sleep and should get some more. Of course it takes me about an hour to wind down from the morning feeds anyways and thought why not go after that? I could easily slip out from 6 to 7:30 and even have time for a shower before the house wakes up at 8am!

The question was: What mativates you to go to the gym that early?

Wanting to lose 20lbs. Get back into my size small clothes. Feel sexy again. I want to be able to look in the mirror and LOVE what I see. I don't even want my husband touching me because I don't think I'm anything to touch right now. How wrong is that? Who am I to deside what he would like anyways. But this I must work on in my head. I must learn to love my beautiful body!

So then I was sitting here right after another wonderful feed around 6:45 and thought why would I attempt to go in the morning when I can go right now while the hubby is home for the kids to save the $8? So I did! And I did again tonight. And I feel good. I love that hour to myself. I love feeling like I'm doing something to help me get to my goal. I guess not like I am doing something.

There's more to this I need to work on. I need to change my diet. I'm doing pretty good but I need to learn more about what will work best with my body to get the fastest results. I weighed myself two days ago and I was 147. Tonight I was 149 but I also had spegetti for dinner :S Oh so yummy :D And I'm feeling like I could eat again but I'm not sure what would be good at 9pm. I could have a glass of milk and some peanut butter on a few crackers or something. Anyways time to do some research.

I made it to the gym again! I'm very proud of this! I don't know how long it will take for me to love what I see but I know if I keep going 3 to 4 times a week and do my very very best to stay away from junk I will get there fast!

Truth... I hurt

Day two! 150lbs and I have NO idea what my measurements are. It's on a pretty blue card filed under Mc30! I go in and get the kids organized in the kids area and off I go! To sweat... and man did I ever! I did 45 min of cardio and 15 min of abs and then baby wanted me! Which gave me no time to stretch and now I hurt. All I want to do is take a nap but I can't. My wifely/motherly duties will be asking for my attention here in a few minutes.

I go back Wednesday morning at 10am if anyone cares to join me. I'm not sure if I'll be walking the next few days hahaha but I know I'll be so busy hopefully I won't be able to focus on the pain. I can't wait for this part to be over!

Now off to make pizzas and organize my new shelf I built last night up here in my sauna! :) Thankfully it's windy right now!

Oh so tired...

So my first day at the gym since who knows when and it was nice! I'm going to like it there! Class options are good and the price is right! Funny they asked why I was joining and I said to save money and then after I join they ask if I want to sign up for 12 hours with a personal trainer... How much an hour? Oh just $55 so that will make your monthly payments $88 a month...

Ok so did you NOT hear why I came here? I want to go from $52 a month to $33 a month and you just asked if I want to pay an extra $55 a month? No thank you! LOL Seriousely people. If I am trying to get fit and save money I am not going to want a personal trainer. First of all it's not my first time at a gym. I know what I want and what I need to do! Second of all that is just way too much and that was a sale price? Google is a wonderful place to find free info to switch things up! Plus I'd rather drag a friend along to be accountable for my work out! That's FREE!!!!

After I explained for the second time that being on Mat Leave is not anyones financial dream and I am doing what I can to cut down on my spending she offered two more free sessions to show me the equipment and what I should do to get to my goal by the fall! That was very nice of her!

This is the part I need to change. Buyers regret, fear, self doubt kind of thinking. This is where I tend to let depression sink in and talk myself out of shit! So here we go. Taking a deep breath and going to my safe happy place. My grandparents deck over the ocean. I picture myself laying there relaxing. Listning to the water and the birds. I can even hear the dogs and the phones ringing!

It's going to be great. I'm going to find myself again. Everything always works out. And that extra money I'm saving will be a nice little addition come Xmas!

Here's to changing my post-experience thoughts and moving on to a good routine!

Here we go again...

Back to the gym!

I have a 1 hour free personal training session tomorrow at 11am!!!!! And then I'll be joining the gym! I already belong to a gym but cancelled it today! I have to pay for two more months but it's the price I pay or not doing it sooner. I'm also going to be saving $30 a month after that! How sweet is that! Yah me!!!! I love the gym! I just hate going there! LOL But I'm happy once I'm there!

So my goal is to gradually lose the rest of my baby weight. Keep in mind I'm breastfeeding! And find complete balance with my body. So I am aiming to start yoga!

Yes that body is my goal!!!! ;) So if I start now and with my Train Your Brain training all should be moving along nicely for the rest of my life!!!!

Right?

I'll let you know how tomorrow goes. The most I've done over the past few years is walk! Slowly hahaha