I have been with my current place of work for just over 8 years. I started there November 3, 2005! I worked my way around a few different departments over the years but was never fully complete. Over the past few years I have been struggling with Self Worth! Believing that I actually deserve amazing things! And if I ever got close to something amazing I would let fear take over and I would regress!
This summer while I sat at my kitchen table alone sobbing and feeling completely unhappy with where I have taken myself and I asked for help! And I received help. I started becoming more aware of a spiritual world. I was given the opportunity to work with an amazing life coach whom I had already respected. I used to work with her at said place above! She is a woman full of love and sparkle and joy! And she helped guide me to the things I needed to work on! Holding my hand while I worked through a lot! I finally started questioning areas in my life I knew that needed questioning! For the better! I wanted better! I deserved better! I needed joy! And that's what I found in 2013!
My marriage became something so beautiful this fall! Our children became happier! And I started doing things I have never done before! Giving back! My life coach and speakers on Hay House Radio said that if you want something to change in your life, give back! So I gave my time! I volunteered at our Woman's Center for two months! And I applied for an amazing opportunity without doubting my abilities! I trusted! I finally listened to myself and just trusted! Never questioning! Just doing!
Last week I had my first interview in over 8 years! I was so sick too! I actually had to cancel my first scheduled interview! It was bad! But instead of going to a negative self talk and thinking that it may be a sign that I shouldn't do this and stay were I am not making what I deserve and giving more then I felt I received... I just trusted that my body was just sick and rested! I slept for 3 days! I am so very grateful for my husband and parents! They helped out so much! Finally I felt a little better and went for my interview! I didn't want to over think that either! I kept repeating in my head "Just Trust Erin, Just Trust". I thought it was a great interview and new I would work well with them but I left it at that and trusted. Last month I got to courage to call someone seeking an opportunity and he told me I was 6 months too late. I cried. I was so mad at myself for missing this opportunity twice! But after my mini self pity party I calmed my thoughts and told my self something better is on it's way! Gabby Bernstein always says "Something better is on a truck!". And that something better came! I got an offer the next afternoon after the interview! I was actually sent an offer letter! O.M.G I DID IT! I applied for a job over a month ago, went to an interview on a Thursday and got an offer for the position on the Friday! ALL BY MYSELF! And once I got over the initial shock that I did it I got up, found the Controller and QUIT MY JOB! The right doors open at the right time when you believe and trust!
"If you want something you have never had, You have to do something you have never done!" Kj.
That's what I did! That's how I did it! I started questioning, changing, volunteering and loving myself! Your thoughts and your words create your reality!
So if you are finding yourself in a negative spiral with no positive change in sight, start paying attention to your thoughts! I started this years ago when I can across The Mind Aware. Started using Mantra's and post-it notes every where! And recently started doing things that brought me joy!
2014 New Years Resolution is to be more Joyful! Doing things that bring me JOY!
I am starting a New JOB!
I signed up for Kundalini Yogo
I will be able to sign my oldest son up for taekwondo which he's been asking to join for over two years!
I will get two full days with my family finally!
And I will continue my spiritual path, working on ME!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hopefully I can blog before the end of the year with a Christmas update but if I get too busy I want to say it now!
Thank you for reading my blog! Have a great rest of the year!
