Wild Rose D-Tox Day 4, 5 & 6

And I started slacking on the blogging. Sorry! lol

Day 4 was a bit hard. I was zoned out most of the day! I felt like I was walking around in a cloud or a haze. Couldn't focus for longer than a few minutes. I left anything important to do the next day in hopes that I wouldn't feel the same way!

Breakfast was just like day 3! It's really the same go to I've had for a long time now. I might switch it up and make apple cinnamon oatmeal this weekend. Mmmmm

Snacks - fruit and nuts

Lunch. Ugh. I couldn't even finish it. Veggies with hummus and I went and got Salmon and lettuce from the restaurant. I tweeted that I've either shrunk my stomach or my body is just sick of eating this healthy for 4 days in a row. I was craving croissants with raspberry jam this morning and everything in the kitchen smells to die for! Steve had

Dinner = Coconut Lime Tilapia

This was Alright. I think I expected a different. The kids ate it all up.

For a family that lives off of carbs this is a bit tough. I'm OK with cutting back but not having any at all. Not indulging just a little. One finger dipped in honey? One chocolate covered almond? Anything? 12 days of extreme clean eating.... We. Can. Make. It. But something as simple as a wrap at lunch! Can't even do that! Because of the wrap itself and sauces. Wow this has opened my eyes to how much we really dress things up! We are spoiled for sure! I am so grateful for that!

Day 5 was great! I woke up with energy! I could focus! I'm pretty sure I haven't felt that awake in a long time! Without taking Vitamin B12.

Breakfast and Lunch for me was the same as day 4. Steve said he had a sub without the good stuff! LOL Poor guy! I keep giving him a way out but I know he's going to finish this and then yell "HA! IN YOUR FACE!" LOL Both of us were craving sweets. I tweeted "Is it cheating if I lick it?" Of course I had to walk by a table full of cookies. O.M.G

So because I wanted something sweet and couldn't have our normal Friday night pizza I make Cinnamon Apple Pork Loin! Mmmmmm I haven't made that in a while! I love that it's not a million degrees in my house so I can start cooking again! I'm pretty sure I was the only one who really loved it. Jaden did very well, Ethan barely touched it and Steve... Well it's just not the same without my usual sauce I make with brown sugar and flour LOL 

And I course I haven't seen my mom all week & she wasn't aware we were cleansing and brought us a gift...

I sent them home with her! 

I had popcorn to try and substitute my usual Friday chocolate craving! It's just not the same. I will be very happy when I can have some dark chocolate! Mmmmm

Day 6 - Saturday

Made us eggs and a smoothie for me! I had walnuts for lunch. Brought hummus and was planning on getting carrots and celery from the restaurant and I just worked right through it. Picked up more fruit & nuts we can have during the week and came home and had an apple. Made another batch of hummus with sun-dried tomatoes! 

Steve made dinner. Curry-Lentil Lamb! It was really good! That will defiantly be made again!!! I will make more of a sauce next time with the lentil!

Our boys were lucky enough to have pizza! Which tortured Steve & I.

Well I'm off to take my mom out for her Birthday! Soda water night out!!! Lol 

Day 7 tomorrow! I'm so proud we've made it a week! Go us! 

Wild Rose D-Tox Day 3

Day 3!

Morning's are hard. I just wanted to stay in bed and not get up. I made hard boiled eggs and my juice again. Love that mix! I will for sure be adding that into my routine after the cleanse... d-tox. Whatever you want to call this. LOL

Today is also left over day. Lunch is the same with added Hummus to our veggies. Dinner was left over meat loaf, chicken and veggies. I made "salsa" to add to whatever. I don't have spices for it but it was alright. Plus we aren't really cilantro fans. I've picked up more spices for this then I've ever really used. I'm a big Epicure fan! Premixed spices! Perfect. I'm also learning to read the ingredients better! 

Yesterday Steve bathed the kids while I cleaned up. When I walked into the bathroom I seriously started drooling. He used the Bert's Bees wash and yeah. It smelt so good! I love honey! I miss the little bit I add to my coffee but I'm actually enjoying it with just Almond Milk!

All around it's alright but the craving are starting to come on strong and my mood is a bit blah! Working in a busy hotel walkin by food that smells amazing and looks so good is hard! 

Here are a few photos! 

Wild Rose D-Tox Day 2

Day 2.

Breakfast = Fantastic!

2 Boiled eggs, Smoothie (Raspberry, Spinach, Beets & Carrot Juice), Coffee and water!

Sorry slacked on the photo taking this AM. I was running late. Didn't sleep too well. Was up a few times to go to the bathroom. And around midnight I had that medal taste in my mouth and felt a bit nauseous. Told myself it was nothing and went back to bed.

Grabbed an Apply, Pear, Almonds and Walnuts for my throughout the day snacks.

I should have measured myself yesterday morning. However I know I've already lost a bit of water weight. Everything is a bit looser! YEAH!!!!! And it's only day two!!!!

Steve is complaining about how bland everything is. Poor guy. So we made roasted red pepper hummus to go with our veggies! It's not too bad. I might ease up on the liquid it said to add from one of the recipes I used.

Lunch was good for me. Steve didn't like it... again. bland! LOL Chicken with salad. Maybe I'll add apples and nuts to Thursday's salad to help sweeten it up.

Dinner = AWESOME!

Sole in a lemon butter sauce with paprika! O....M....G with wild rice and sweet potato fries. Which Jaden called Nemos! 

I should have taken a photo of our plates after. Mine was pretty dry. I didn't put a lot of extra butter sauce on anything. Steve on the other hand. Well let's just say Nemo could have swam in his plate! It was nice to end with a good meal.

We are both feeling tired but I personally am not finding this cleanse very harsh. But I'm used to eating more clean.

Let's see how day 3 goes.

Wild Rose D-Tox Day 1

For those of you who don't know the Wild Rose D-Tox is a Herbal D-Tox that cleans out your liver, colon, kidneys and lymphatic system by taking supplements and following a very strict diet. I have been wanting to do this for a while. I prepared by reading up on a few meal plans. I didn't get the kit that came with the cook book. I recommend getting the cook book. Spend the extra few dollars! I might see about getting it solo here this week. But I found some cool recipes online and if you are good in the kitchen you should be able to follow the guidelines and create your own amazing meals! In reality it's pretty simple and will turn your usual weekly boring meals into amazing variety!

Breakfast = Fail!

Green Eggs, Cut up apple & pear, Water and Coffee

The Green eggs were not very good at all. I'm pretty sure I put too much kale in the mix. Never again! LOL Boiled Eggs from now on!

He had one bite & asked for his waffle! He ate all his apple & pear slices too!

Taking the supplements and the drops were not bad at all. I put the drops in a small amount of water to take in one go! That was easy! I can do that twice a day! No problem. My husband on the other hand. I'm pretty sure he's asking himself what the F he just signed up for! 

I fried some chicken for lunch to put in a salad but my day didn't go as planned. I had the rest of the apple & pear and a handful of almonds and walnuts for lunch. I took a piece of the chicken as I ran out the door to my next appointment.

Tonight I plan to make salad for tomorrow! Mmmmm Yet I keep forgetting to pick up oil. I swore we had olive oil.

Dinner = OK

Quinoa Meat Loaf!

I really wasn't paying attention to the time and should have turned my oven up. It was good but bland. It's hard when you are so used to sauces with sugar! The boys loved it but they got to smother it with ketchup!

Sorry no photos.

So far the "D-Tox" hasn't kicked in. Just a lot of water! I'm down with that! TMI I go to the bathroom a lot anyways when I drink the right amount of water!

I'm feeling a bit blah today but I don't believe it has to do with the supplements. I have a bit of a headache but that could be from crying over Y&R! Laugh! I know you want to! I'm looking forward to tomorrow! I like the idea of illuminating the bad! I don't have the desire to eat crap right now! But I'm sure that desire will increase over the next 12 days!

My truth about friendships

People come in and out of your life for a reason. I accept who I am and who I am becoming and I accept that it may no long include people from my past. I can not control others perceptions. But I will say this. Do not take my lack of being the upfront kind of friend you may feel I should be without stating so personally! Just like I have learned and am still learning, you can not assume people around you are mind readers! If you need me I will be there! But you must say so! That's just who I am! I will drop my life for my friends! Even those I haven't spoken to in years if they call me needed someone! I love you all! But I am not the kind of person to go out of my way blindly. That's because I have in the past and I got burned. And I have learned in my past to not focus so much on those who drain me. I can't blame them for that. It's just knowing what I can and can not handle. My intentions in life are not to offend people. Especially friends. So please if you want to go for coffee... CALL ME. If you think I'm being to selfish by working too much... PICK UP THE PHONE AND TELL ME. Because I will most likely be sitting on my own couch watching TV on a Saturday Night if I do not have a party! Or in bed early. I love sleep!

Years ago I made a conscious decision to step back from a friendship I felt was draining. And today I think it ended. But that doesn't mean I didn't care about her. I just couldn't be there for her. I'm sad but I'm also alright with this. Because of my decision years ago. I hope she finds the person she needs to be her true friend. I'm sorry I just couldn't be that for her.

I'm working on building a tribe that is supportive and positive and full of amazing spiritual people. I know that will take time. First I need to work on me! Because ME hasn't been a priority for a long time! I hope that those of you who know me will stay with me on my journey! And I thank those who have stood by me through everything! Even when I loose touch with reality and fall deep. But I feel I'm finally finding me. Finally loving me!

So please be patient with me if you are in my life at this moment! If you hear from me once in a blue moon, know that you still hold a place dear in my heart. If you are reading this and we haven't spoken in years. Don't take it personally. I may just be stupid and lost touch so send me a message! Say hi! I don't call when I should and I don't always send emails or messages when I should! I know this about me! I know that if we are meant to be in each others lives that you will understand this about me too!

Thank you! And I love you!

Detox Prep

My husband and I have decided to do a cleanse together! I've been wanting to do one for a long time but fear got in the way! I LOVE food! The not so good for you food! When I was on mat leave I started eating healthier and working out 5 days a week! Yeah me! And then.... I started working again. I have been inconsistent with myself since. Making excuses. Filling up my schedule. Eating poorly again. I've heard great things about the Wild Rose Detox! So I picked it up!

However my oldest turned 7 yesterday. We have been baking cookies, eating pumpkin pancakes and ice cream cake.... oh and this weekend... Pizza and cupcakes!!!!! Oh my! Mmmmmm

I googled recipes acceptable for the cleanse! WOW! I love most of the food you are allowed to eat! Why have I not been this creative before? I am now looking forward to this!

We have also tried to fit in Insanity videos during the week! It's hit or miss but at least we are trying! My other goal is to start walking up the 7 flights of stairs I have at my work during the day! My shoes are currently still in my car and I don't have socks! LOL I know. I know... Excuses!

Tomorrow is Chuck E Cheese birthday party and Sunday is shopping day! I hope you all have a great weekend.

Happy Friday Everyone! :)

Feeling Defeated

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Deep breath. Try not to cry. Remember what you have learned over the years.

Yet that hollow, painful feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you decide to look into an option of change. FEAR. That. Right now is what I'm feeling. And this fear is always wrapped around finances!

I'm a mother of two. I have a mortgage to pay. Other debt to manage. A life to care for. We are a dual working family. We can not live on one income. Calgary just doesn't allow that. Past choices doesn't allow that. I want to change THAT!

So I thought the best way to look into my potential career change is to volunteer. Over the past three weeks I have applied to every location I can think of, asked friends for advice and nothing. I haven't had a single phone call back. I just want to help, to learn, to see. Of course I want to better myself. I want better for myself. For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to help people. But I never had the confidence or the belief in myself to go there. Now at 30 I'm wondering why the hell I didn't do this sooner. Why didn't I feel this major pull sooner. Now at 30 my options are harder to work around. And I don't even know if I could even get into a course. What if I'm not smart enough? What if I need to do more upgrading? fear, fear, fear, fear..... GRRRRRRRRRR

Deep Breath...

Release...

Ok. So. How do I do this? Where do I start? One step at a time. Baby steps.

Has anyone been in my position? How did you get around this? Because right now all I can see is my fear and my only other option is to win the lotto which I never buy a ticket for! HA! Fudge.

Well it's not that bad. I'm just having a woe is me moment! Twirling around my habitual chaos!

I will get over this soon! I will research out my options! I will call people for guidance! If this is something I am truly passionate about and will actually look into I have just under a year to plan!

I have time! But I'm also impatient!

I pray that I can teach my boys to have full confidence in their abilities! To go after their dreams when they are younger! Before they settle with a family! lol

But for now I'm feeling defeated. Stuck.

My photo to help move me from hopeless to hopeful! 

Wordless Wednesday's October 9th

Moments with my 2 year old! 

Searching for toys! Then refusing to clean up! 

Finding him napping in the rocking chair! Priceless! 

The Dreaded Season of Sickness

It's that time of year again! Kids are back in school. Weather is changing and .... the dreaded Cold and Flu season is upon us!

I get 4 sick days a year. 4! That's it! Are you kidding me? I have kids! 4 is just not enough. BUT because of who I am I manage to save them for the end of the year! I will come to work sick in order to be sent home so I don't have to use them through out the year! I'm also blessed that if I do get sick it usually happens around my weekends. If you can call that a blessing! ha! sigh.

My boss and I were just talking about people who are consistently late for work or call in sick all the time and how we both don't understand how they can be like that. I felt guilty saying I couldn't make it to work when Calgary was flooding! Seriously Erin? WTF. My boss says the same thing. There's that guilt the takes over when you all in. But I also know that if I call in sick my job will not get done so it's just hell going back.

I am very lucky that I can depend on my dad now to help. Both my kids were recently sick. I would have needed 8 or more sick days to care for them these past few weeks. Steve and I take half days to care for the boys if we can't depend on my dad. Thankfully we are able to do that!

Then of course because your family is sick what happens? You get it because you are not sleeping and constantly being used as a snot rag. Ugh.

Over the years I have Googled natural remedies for colds and whatnot. Sore throat - Gargle cayenne pepper. Add honey to your coffee and brew it with cinnamon. Try taking Oil of Oregano for a while. Colloidal Silver spray can help keep it at bay. Peppermint, spicy foods, soups, water, water and more water. Ginger tea. and last seeing your chiropractor. Which recently I haven't done because A. he moved and B. I spent what little spending money I have on the above remedies saving my health spending for dental and eye exams!

So every morning and every night I sit and list my blessings. I say thanks for our health even when I feel like a sac of shit! I'm trying to lie to myself! I FEEL FANTASTIC! Yeah not really.

We are Lysoling (New Word of the Season) our entire house. I'm dreaming up a sanitizing kids spray system schools can install in the doorways so ass they walk threw all their kid germs will not be brought home! I know some germs are good but they just don't wash their hands long enough.

I wonder if that onion story is true? Should I put unpeeled onions around my house?

What are you doing to avoid this dreaded season?

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